The thing about being a mother of three young children and trying to start a business is that your mind is no longer your own. There is no time for rest, even when you are sleeping. Constantly thoughts of the children, housework, day to day tasks as well as new business ideas and in this case designs are flowing 24/7. While I love the path that I am on, I sometimes miss the days where I could sit in front of the television and veg out for an hour or two, or going back 6 years or so an entire Sunday! My point being, this is a very hard deal. I have days where I feel on fire, like everything is going my way. I have completed an amazing garment, the kids are behaving and the house...well, its not as messy as it could be. However, most days don't feel like that. Most days I feel as though I am being pulled in a million different directions and accomplishing nothing. Moreover, to top it all off, I feel as though I am neglecting everyone and everything outside of my family and this business. Luckily, I have really amazing friends who completely understand for the most part but I still feel pretty crappy about it.
Trying to start a fashion line...from scratch at the pace I am trying to accomplish it all in is kinda crazy. Its like saying "Hey ya know what? I have always wanted to own my own restaurant so I think I will buy a building and open one next year. Now let me go learn how to cook." But anyone who knows me knows that when I put my mind to something, I mean really truely put my mind to it, there is pretty much no stopping me, no matter how crazy the idea sounds. Therefore, I am chugging along, bad day or not toward my goal.
So as I am sure you figured from all of this venting, today is one of those not so great days. But here's the thing, I will persevere. I plan on riding this bitch till the wheels fall off even if I lose my ever loving mind in the process!
TTYL Blog land,